My Rants

Sunday, March 30, 2008 - :

The sun is rising @ 7:23 PM

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 - Together, we make a difference :

went to support hockey yesterday. quite cool i tink. but there's this spastic girl kept 'falling down' or maybe its jus her pose whenever she starts the ball? well... its kind of irritating. i was like pi ping-ing tt school's ppl like duno wad. oh! n i jus learn tt there's special poses for 'penalty goal'. but of course, our school's pose looks more zhuan(1) ye(4) n cool! haha. tt school's outfit is like kinda... yellow top with green skirt. i insist that is green okay? i am not colourblind. btw, aikky was saying guys r more likely to be colourblind compared to girls. haha.

n PE todae almost took my life? i dun tink i can reach the target of 16mins for 6 rounds._. but i wan to get gold for NAPFA. HOW? tell me jump standing board jump 30 times i dun mind leh. then i was lazy to do 30 sit-ups, so me n cai each do 15. "so together we make a difference". we did 30 together=) then hv to lift up this heavy heavy heavy like siao log. so cai n me did it 5 times together. hehee.

chem lesson is so ever funny. lucky choo came in late cos i was so tired n the 15mins really did give me a good sleep be4 chem starts. i duno wad he said excalty but then got this thing abt increasing density down the group? n then got one element is not like tt so that element is known as 'the idoit'. still got alot things but i dun remember. i seriously tink i having short term memory:/

i like keep forgetting to bring enough money nowadays so cannot eat more more more food ): n im currently obessed wif the citybox game thingy. lalala. But i still have discipline to not play (:

The sun is rising @ 5:19 PM

Sunday, March 23, 2008 - :

AHEM. my hair cut was not good._.
my face always look fat when my hair is short. no. shld be whenever i have a haircut._.
tt particular physics ws is getting on my nerves. n i cant find any similar ques frm alot of reference books.
SPOP show is quite nice n im watching now.
i dun think i can finish writing geo notes todae.
3 ridiculous thing in my life really made my life ridiculous.
i so regret.
everything is in chunks here.
and y is everything so complicated? can anyone make them simpler?
healthy competition is some crap thing. cos i dun tink competitions r healthy at all.
i totally wan to throw something out of universe. or, at least throw out of earth first.
i finally got my broadband btw n its faster than be4. quite obvious rite?
there's school tmr. as usual. but i wan more more rest.
more more food, to make me feel better :)
food that are nice (:
bye bye.

The sun is rising @ 9:31 PM

Thursday, March 20, 2008 - :

measuring length of a single tiny winy rice grain which is pathetically much much skinner than me is a very dumb thing. n this is an experiment for bio. supposedly to be a universal test ._. wad a stupid thing. n the rice grains i got are all ALL incomplete. here chip there chip. n the instructions still say take out all incomplete rice grains. so does that mean i wun be left with any? n i shall ask teacher give me a new bottle. if the quality of rice grains r as lan as the ones i hv now, i wonder how the ppl did their practical test.

i bought chocolates todae! so nice! there say 7 for $1 but then when i tell the person, she grab like one handful. i tot she going to count but she jus put them in a plastic bag n even grab one handful more. in the end i got 16 for $1. im sure she is not blur. yup. she must like me alot or c that i really deprived of chocolates for very long. haha. n joven buy another kind 5 for $1. the person gave her 6 n i got 1 free from joven. yay. n joy treat me to 'top' chocolate. i tot it was quite nice but angie say that chocolate was sot of gross? haha.

ate egg prata for lunch todae. i m back to chilli stuff cos i dun need care much abt my voice. hehee. but i wouldnt wan any sore throat so im going drink lots of water!

The sun is rising @ 9:58 PM

Wednesday, March 19, 2008 - jia you :

i jus trash everything out todae. i duno if i did the right thing but things r not going to be like this. it cant. i cant believe i can talk for more than 1/2 hr. if my words hurt, im sorry.

jus changed seat todae. n i slept again. todae, during mrs khong lesson. i getting worse since the start of term 2. worse meaning lazy cos i dun feel like doing my hw n i jus wan to slack n sleep :/

N i need chocolates badly. if anyone buy for me, i would be so then grateful and love the person a lot. hehee.

i type 35 words per minute. tts like so slow. anyway, my typing skills are not good.

i tot there will be like no test next week lah and then chinese test boomed out of nowhere. so sao xing.

there's alot of things undone. i must finish them all.

i need to treat someone 2 nuggets btw.

everything so dis-jointed here. that's how my life is going now.

i wan to eat fruit tarts.
i wan to drink clam soup chowder.
i wan eat sushi.
i wan to eat subway.
i wan to do great things.
i wan to score very very very very well for all my tests.

The sun is rising @ 5:25 PM

Monday, March 17, 2008 - things went wrong :

well... everything seems weird. i was like a lifeless person for the whole day? amaths test went wrong. n it was actually a very easy paper. very easy n i mistook the last ques. wanted to die badly right after the test. i almost wanted to kill myself i tink. y must this be the start of first day of term two? a very good start indeed.

i m "light" now not becos of my weight btw. yup. everything is over in a flash. although i had tears of disappointment n well... blank mind until todae's afternoon, i realise i have to wake up n come back to the world that i hv to be in. studies must still go on. i hv to concentrate instead of being a lifeless person in class. things were really bad todae. my first day of term two. i was thinking abt it still in the morning, looking at the room, i felt like crying again. i hv a sense of lost i tink. yup. n i feel very bad cos i selpt in choo's class. i knew he saw me doozing off. but i couldnt help it, my eyes cannot be forced open somehow. hai ya. i would try my best not to be like tt tmr. i hv to put things dwn n move on. there's disappointment but i m still proud tt we made it through. good rest is all i need rite? i shld be fine by nxt week.

moaned to cai tt i nd a counsellor on mrt in the afternoon. n i kept remembering wrongly when learning spelling. laugh like sot. i duno if i was laughing cos it was funny or i was too stress le. i was really abnormal. ya. so if anyone choose to ignore me, it's fine. cos i always hv aftershocks for everything. n really... i kept seeing juniors todae, at random time n random place. saw claudia at durian pancake stall-amk hub. it was when i wanted to buy pancakes to stuff myself to forget abt tt stupid careless unforgivable mistake i made in te amaths test. i m sure everyone is going to get full marks. our class is like genious? such a easy test n i didnt do it well. where the hell my soul was at lah. arghhh...

problems still unsolved. i dun wan to face this world. but i know i have to carry on. 2 ridiculous thing in my life. i can force myself to not add on to problems everytime n i duno y i am able to do it.

The sun is rising @ 8:33 PM

Saturday, March 15, 2008 - Z'COMP here we come... :

The sun is rising @ 12:59 PM

Wednesday, March 12, 2008 - give me strength n knowledge n skills :

okay. so i getting my new phone which i didnt choose. is choosen my dad who zi zuo zu zhang again. i wan sony erisson not nokia phone. but cannot be helped already ): i hv to use it for another 2 yrs plus. i dun understand y phone plans always last so long :x nvm. but is jus tt white is easily dirtied. n my dad go crap say the phone looks veri classic. u knw y it is classic? cos it is called the classic series >.<

ai ya. i wan to stop time n improve my first-aid skills. suddenly i feel so dumb. cos i didnt get the fishball out of te person's mouth. arghhh... things i knw hw to do but didnt do it properly. i getting so tired of things. i tink the only impt thing i need to do is to keep myself calm on tt day. jus treat the ppl normally. n tink properly. n then things shld be alright.

i realise this comp is not abt whether u can achieve or not. IS: u must achieve no matter wad. u cant choose. it has been achieved for te past yrs. so doesnt mean u cannot then cannot. cannot also mus become a can. am i talking sense here? i bet im not again. n wad crap like: wad u gain is experience, results doesnt matter, wad matters is the things u learnt throughout te process. sry lah, but who look at these? u didnt get te results means u didnt get it. n that's it. that's the end. i have known this long enough n nothing has ever change my mind abt this fact.

i shall pray n be thankful tt im part of this experience tt is so new to me. n i will, shall n must strive to the best of my ability to complete this mission.

erms.... i like blogging abt sj stuff like on most of my posts. so if u cant understand. nvm. but mus continue to patronise my blog (: haha. LOVE AGJMXY :)

The sun is rising @ 5:34 PM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008 - :

i have no time or jing shen to tink abt stupid things or unpleasant or things i totally gets pissed off last week. the last week of term 1. i totally regret my decision. anyway, i find myself making great decisions from end of last yr until now. there has been quite a few major things that i really need to decide.

n the worst thing is i havent been doing well in everything. im quite disappointed in myself todae. over the assessment n stuff. my 'performance' wasnt good. in fact it was quite bad ): things or flaws i knw frm te start but fail to do better. i feel quite pathetic actually cos ya... i cant diagnose if any weirded situation arises during firs-aid. there's great stress upon my leader n i feel bad cos i cant help in any way. ai ya. i jus feel so not up to it compared to others i tink. i am not talking any sense here. my sentences r not pharsed in a way tt ppl will understand. i knw where i am from the start. n todae's assessment proved so. i horribly worried now. i need to force myself to make it up to standard.

my pile of hw is still there. my table is so cluttered for the first time. n i found out like quite many ppl finish their maths hw le. omg. -faint- im so slow. n i have no time. n i dun hv the xin qing to do :/ i want to freeze the time and stone for a moment cos everything is going too fast around me.

The sun is rising @ 3:46 PM

Friday, March 7, 2008 - :

The sun is rising @ 8:46 PM

Monday, March 3, 2008 - zone comp costs alot...i hv 2 JiaYou! :

i went through terrible shock this afternoon. i am supposed to hand in my form n bfa cert todae for zone comp but then i didnt get te form on fri so i tot the form will be passed to me todae n i hand up te form wif my bfa cert tmr. things didnt happen as i tot u c. tot tot tot. dun ever assume. cos todae 2.30pm is actually te deadline for us to submit form n bfa cert or else u will be kicked out of the competition. when brenda called me n told me tt i think i stoned n duno wad i did nxt. wadever it is, my bfa cert is still 'safely' resting at home. i duno how was to fly home. n my house is like not run can reach tt kind. called my mum n ask her find for the cert. but she couldnt understand which cert i was talking abt so explain for like very long. asking n asking if she sees the words Basic First Aid. but she didnt. got so flustered tt i wanted to rush home n take. i couldnt remember how the cert is like n i was so confused at te moment. pacing around like some mad person. is like if u dun hand in u get kicked out u knw. if anybody can be calm at this moment i can bai ta wei shi. one stupid bfa cert caused me to like cry in front of quite some ppl. i tink they were all very shocked cos everything happen so suddenly. i broke out crying like very suddenly ): things went on n my mum brought the cert in the end. omg. if like there was nobody to help me at tt time, i tink i jus give up. cos need to photocopy this that, sign, hand in blah blah. n i need to overcome my shock :/

THANK YOU FOR ALL WHO HELP ME IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER <3 im sry for causing quite some trouble but i didnt forget, is i didnt know :/

JIA YOU FOR ZONE COMP!

The sun is rising @ 10:32 PM

Sunday, March 2, 2008 - i got horrible sore throat. :

The sun is rising @ 8:30 PM