My Rants
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
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i have no time or jing shen to tink abt stupid things or unpleasant or things i totally gets pissed off last week. the last week of term 1. i totally regret my decision. anyway, i find myself making great decisions from end of last yr until now. there has been quite a few major things that i really need to decide.
n the worst thing is i havent been doing well in everything. im quite disappointed in myself todae. over the assessment n stuff. my 'performance' wasnt good. in fact it was quite bad ): things or flaws i knw frm te start but fail to do better. i feel quite pathetic actually cos ya... i cant diagnose if any weirded situation arises during firs-aid. there's great stress upon my leader n i feel bad cos i cant help in any way. ai ya. i jus feel so not up to it compared to others i tink. i am not talking any sense here. my sentences r not pharsed in a way tt ppl will understand. i knw where i am from the start. n todae's assessment proved so. i horribly worried now. i need to force myself to make it up to standard.
my pile of hw is still there. my table is so cluttered for the first time. n i found out like quite many ppl finish their maths hw le. omg. -faint- im so slow. n i have no time. n i dun hv the xin qing to do :/ i want to freeze the time and stone for a moment cos everything is going too fast around me.
The sun is rising @
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