My Rants
Monday, March 17, 2008
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things went wrong
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well... everything seems weird. i was like a lifeless person for the whole day? amaths test went wrong. n it was actually a very easy paper. very easy n i mistook the last ques. wanted to die badly right after the test. i almost wanted to kill myself i tink. y must this be the start of first day of term two? a very good start indeed.i m "light" now not becos of my weight btw. yup. everything is over in a flash. although i had tears of disappointment n well... blank mind until todae's afternoon, i realise i have to wake up n come back to the world that i hv to be in. studies must still go on. i hv to concentrate instead of being a lifeless person in class. things were really bad todae. my first day of term two. i was thinking abt it still in the morning, looking at the room, i felt like crying again. i hv a sense of lost i tink. yup. n i feel very bad cos i selpt in choo's class. i knew he saw me doozing off. but i couldnt help it, my eyes cannot be forced open somehow. hai ya. i would try my best not to be like tt tmr. i hv to put things dwn n move on. there's disappointment but i m still proud tt we made it through. good rest is all i need rite? i shld be fine by nxt week. moaned to cai tt i nd a counsellor on mrt in the afternoon. n i kept remembering wrongly when learning spelling. laugh like sot. i duno if i was laughing cos it was funny or i was too stress le. i was really abnormal. ya. so if anyone choose to ignore me, it's fine. cos i always hv aftershocks for everything. n really... i kept seeing juniors todae, at random time n random place. saw claudia at durian pancake stall-amk hub. it was when i wanted to buy pancakes to stuff myself to forget abt tt stupid careless unforgivable mistake i made in te amaths test. i m sure everyone is going to get full marks. our class is like genious? such a easy test n i didnt do it well. where the hell my soul was at lah. arghhh... problems still unsolved. i dun wan to face this world. but i know i have to carry on. 2 ridiculous thing in my life. i can force myself to not add on to problems everytime n i duno y i am able to do it.
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