My Rants
Friday, July 18, 2008
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i guess i will only blog on friday, sat or sun for a long time to come cos my life is totally (i dun wan to spell that word). my chinese listening compre totally screwed. made me feel like (i dun wan to spell that word). n i realise all problems i facing would be solved if i like migrate to other schools. oh wadever:/ maybe it was wrong decision from the start and now i have to live with it. im sorry to whoever i owe unintentionally. n yeah i not (i dun wan spell that word) alright. till now i still think so. i dread but wads the use? (i dun wan spell that word)me for all i care. anybody. totally lost my direction on thurs afternoon. duno where i was walking to and cant bother to walk in the correct direction. the hardest part was the tears stuck inside me. n i managed to smile today in school for duno wad reason. i lost my believe somehow on the way. duno if i fund it back. initally, it was just responsibility i thought needed to be fulfilled but now is like (i duno spell this word). no such word anyway. i created it myself. gave me a medium hat but i duno how use it. wrong wrong will lead to 2 wrongs. blah. wad talking me? i cannot say everything i want to say here and cannot say verbally also, n so the voice inside my head is probably going to explode. later the blood vessels burst for all i care. thinking is a bad choice because there is no solution to solutions of every problem. i typing freaking many words without leaving paras. teacher would prob be so irritated if he/she reads an essay like this. oh well. i dun feel well. crap. i solved the rubriks cube finally. n went to listen to the song crying or something like that sung by jaejoong. i am wasting time which can be used to do more constructive stuff than typing my silly life. i need to include more more rhethorical devices in my speech. i have to live through the rainy days with thunder and lightning and tell myself that tmr will be a better day.
The sun is rising @
11:14 PM