My Rants

Friday, November 20, 2009 - :

this is really horrible. i can't put my thoughts into words these days so they come out incoherent. i'hv been thinking about LIFE. im probably emo-ing but i think thinking about my goals is important though nothing ever flowers from my thinking process. after so much of so called acquiring knowledge process sometimes i feel that i'm useless. apart from reading the textbook, answering questions, what more do i know about? when i feel like doing something i'hv never done before, there's this voice in my head that says "you won't be good at it". truth is i don't seem to be good in anything. i want to do something that i feel i'm good at and not be looked as insignificant. why am i not gifted for something?

gah. thinking too much again and i really don't know who i should talk to to feel better. it's probably self-pity im feeling for myself. is it because of the environment i'hv been in for four years? who's to say things may have been different if i'hv been somewhere else.

where do i feel like going now?
do i belong?

The sun is rising @ 5:19 PM

Tuesday, November 17, 2009 - :

it shows exactly 12 on my computer clock. how cool is that. i think i'hv never blogged during midnight. oh well.

today went cai's house and played the wee game or is it wi? oh whatever. and i realised i cant play remote control games. i actually held the remote the wrong way and 'mushroom' character in the game ended up turning round and round. then went with theresa to shop for her dress. she gave me a hard time. really. because she didn't want to try on those dresses. good thing is she found her dress! yip!

im trying to find some shiny thing to put on my wrist. so maybe i'll be going bugis street these few days? zzzz...

i just finish watching 'hot shot' (a very long ago show) and i think the ending doesn't make any sense.

i think nobody comes here anymore but i'll continue blogging because reading my own posts is like reading a diary and i can feel how i felt at point of time when writing those posts.

it's so amazing that i havent touched any books in three days.

The sun is rising @ 12:00 AM

Sunday, November 15, 2009 - :

today i went to hunt for a dress with my mum and aunt and i want to say i have never tried on so many clothes in a day in my life. it was really SHOPPING. now that i really shopped i cant say i like it because it was horrible :x seeing pretty dress is one thing, looking good on you is another thing. and most of the time the dresses i tried didn't fit at all. or i shall say there isn't any dress of my size. $#%^&

oh whatever. i shall go watch shows now.

btw, only everything fits well on a manequin.

The sun is rising @ 9:25 PM

Wednesday, November 4, 2009 - :

i think i regret. seriously. i shouldnt be thing like that i know. but argh...

now i think back, i realise things weren't that smooth but somehow they're over and can't really remember what were not good.

haiz.

on the surface there don't seem to be any expectations but surely somewhere in you, you expect something though i don't really know what they are. im mixing up all my pronouns but who cares.

what happens when there seems to be no faith but only expectations?
wouldn't it be fun if we study just for the sake of acquiring knowledge? and studying is not used to determine how good you are?
okay. i think it is not possible after all if im still living on this planet.
so i don't care if the world is going to end at 2012.

The sun is rising @ 5:32 PM