My Rants

Thursday, March 25, 2010 - :

i hate it when the same thing happens everyday. aren't you all tired? when will you ever grow up? i can't just pretend to build soundproofing walls when they don't exist.

hais. work are piling up and there isn't a clear button to solve it. there's like so many things to do until i don't know which to focus on. and doing a bit here and there is not the way. can't seem to remember stuff.

people whom i can talk to are so far away and end up bottling up a lot of stuff. it is horrible when you are the one who knows what's happening from many accounts. i need to learn to ignore stuff and be some insensitive freak ):

woo~~ tmr is friday! i shall make time to start building some wooden thing i bought. i shall also start saving money to buy chip too because dale is so lonely and becoming anti-social :O

The sun is rising @ 11:26 PM

Sunday, March 21, 2010 - :

full stop?

or ...

hahaha. i can't believe i actually left homework undone. maybe i'll just die tmr. great.

met up with squadmates today!!!!!!! and i think it has been a long time since i laughed so hard. melody and her 'oreo, chin chao (grass jelly), kitkat....' jokes and pung and her 'shit' jokes. HAHAHAHAHA. we all brought homework except clarissa but didn't have the mood to do them in the end though pung suggested going library :o

some things i'll never get it. i don't know why there's a need to hide. but i just came to accept that some things are that practical. whatever it is, stay away.
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no matter what, you all have won the journey.

The sun is rising @ 10:19 PM

Thursday, March 18, 2010 - :

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ha. click on the link above. you'll feel lame after doing the whole thing but trust me you will keep clicking after one click (:

last Saturday was a reflective day.
so, there was this family day for the mentally disabled. when you look at them, you feel that most of the time you want too much and you ask yourself whether there's a need to want so much. For them to answer something simple to us is as difficult as us trying so hard to solve a math question. they may not be normal to us and sad to say some people will never accept them, but they seem to be happy enough to be who they really are. and they won't be forced to achieve because people don't expect them to.

everyone can be given equal rights but where you start off will never be the same, never be equal.

yea so after the cip thing went queuing for a few pens because of 25% popular discount! (: gave me a chance to grab more markers because of the mindset that it'll be cheaper if i buy then. haha. and yup the few of us took picture in 'ion' toilet because the toilet looks high class i guess? and end up looking like refugees in the picture. -shall put it on fb when i get to know my phone better (; -

then monday, i went for meet-the-people session and got to know of some common problems some people in society are experiencing now. some people just have different way of running their lives that they end up needing help. it was so hard to suppress my consistent coughing which must have been rude.

i need songs! nice food! like pasta! bag! since it's tearing at the bottom! wallet! cuz the zip is torn! slippers! my old ones broke during orientation! so many things! more sleep! more entertainment! more interesting things to happen in my life! and i want fly to australia and meet theresa!

that's a lot to ask for but for me most things are just going to end up like my wish list in the past that will never be done or fulfilled.

where am i aiming?

The sun is rising @ 8:04 PM

Monday, March 1, 2010 - :

okay so i havent really done anything productive today. i haven't been concentrating on anything ever since school started because there weren't a specific goal. you know like in sec 4, the goal was 'o's and i knew what i was doing in cca. so now in a whole new place and whole new life, it isn't surprising that im lost. maybe others have found there way through this maze but i have to say im still trying to. someone just told me that i'hv to adapt to the environment and not the other way round, i agree, but it isn't helping.

so i quitted fencing and im back to the same point from where i started. and i wonder why i am always going in circles. the major problem must be me being afraid to take risk. but how am i suppose to have the courage to do so when it seems that i always fail. things just don't go my way most of the time.

i really wonder why i am where i am now. it juxtaposes to what i said two years ago. it seems realllyy long ago.

i am real sick of making choices too because i always don't know whether the choice is correct. i guess the answers i need are still in process. but i really hope to get somewhere.

then there's certain things that are happening now that is invisible to one's eye. that's real evil i think. i mean why not just be direct?! haiz. someone's bound to get hurt in the end.

PW is real weird. im still trying to identify the problem. haiz. and can someone please teah me how to use the nlb thing.

oh no, i think i've abusing my poor laptop. it's working too hard ):

decisions...

The sun is rising @ 7:35 PM