My Rants

Monday, March 1, 2010 - :

okay so i havent really done anything productive today. i haven't been concentrating on anything ever since school started because there weren't a specific goal. you know like in sec 4, the goal was 'o's and i knew what i was doing in cca. so now in a whole new place and whole new life, it isn't surprising that im lost. maybe others have found there way through this maze but i have to say im still trying to. someone just told me that i'hv to adapt to the environment and not the other way round, i agree, but it isn't helping.

so i quitted fencing and im back to the same point from where i started. and i wonder why i am always going in circles. the major problem must be me being afraid to take risk. but how am i suppose to have the courage to do so when it seems that i always fail. things just don't go my way most of the time.

i really wonder why i am where i am now. it juxtaposes to what i said two years ago. it seems realllyy long ago.

i am real sick of making choices too because i always don't know whether the choice is correct. i guess the answers i need are still in process. but i really hope to get somewhere.

then there's certain things that are happening now that is invisible to one's eye. that's real evil i think. i mean why not just be direct?! haiz. someone's bound to get hurt in the end.

PW is real weird. im still trying to identify the problem. haiz. and can someone please teah me how to use the nlb thing.

oh no, i think i've abusing my poor laptop. it's working too hard ):

decisions...

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