My Rants

Saturday, September 25, 2010 - :

Everyday, every single minute there is someone in the world who is suffering, who feels like dying, who can't find someone to talk to, who wants to be anyone else except himself. i would like to pray for him.

It's so hard nowadays to go through a single day without being angry at someone unless i switch off my senses and find ways to live in my own bubble. To be blind. Deaf. Mute. Because feeling unhappy is even worse than feeling nothing.
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On a cliff, when facing your enemy with a gun pointing at you, you have to jump off the cliff because there's a higher possibility of surviving. Midway to death you managed to grab hold of a branch and you felt hope. Human survival instinct kicks in and you struggle to find a way out. But if you still can't find a way and the branch can't support you any longer, do you let go or wait for the branch to snap?

The sun is rising @ 10:12 PM

Tuesday, September 21, 2010 - :

why are some people hateful?

oh man. bad way to start a post. i don't know why my life seems to be filled the same few things. things that are really really hateful. i am so desperate for this year to end and never in my life had i wished for a year to end. if i ever need to find a word to describe this year it would be torturous. It is torturous to see faces you don't wish to see. It is torturous to know of things you don't want to know. It is torturous to form perceptions of people (because human nature gets shallower every time i look deeper). It is torturous to tolerate attitudes. It is torturous to know that life might have been better if I'hd made a different choice.

because everything was wrong from the start, it is hard to live with it. finding escapes from time to time isn't going to help. And since i don't have the power to change hateful attitudes, i just have to go through the torture of tolerating it. And it is even worse when hateful attitudes appear only at specific timings. wolf/sheep's clothing? i don't know. Pretentious, frickle-minded, brain smaller than a pea, people rule. way to go man. they really make the world better.

Shred them.

And then there are the meanos. self righteous.

The world certainly welcomes more conflicts.

Compromise doesn't exist when people are stubborn with their ways and still think they are the greatest.

such a whim.

The sun is rising @ 10:32 PM