My Rants
Monday, November 22, 2010
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i'm sort of feeling lousy for not getting it...
hais. It's probably one of the few times
I've decided to do something that i like though i had the feeling that i won't get it.
second wake up call then.
Being aimless is one of the problems this year and well... i suppose also disliking school life.
screwd. Knowing what needs to be done but not working well to get it. ): ohs or should i say i
didnt feel the need to do well for the year. it was only after everything has ended, i began to regret...
I feel like i didn't
fulfill my sub-conscious expectation of myself. i guess it's the time to work harder and tell myself 'it's okay. at least this horrible year is over'.
The sun is rising @
10:09 PM
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
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the bane of my
existance is finally gone.
well... first to start off and earliest to finish. and it was real 'lucky' for us to get all the
moderaters from
moe. i was freaking scared until i was stiff and didn't dare to move my legs once i stood on that particular spot because my wobbly legs might just collapse. i don't know if in the end i have assured the desired grade but it was my best effort at that moment.
the same old thing happening at home everyday until i think
i'm sick of it. i really hope that my brother can knock himself out of the lazy world he's living in and start getting serious about work. i know that he's not stupid but he just refuses to focus on studying. well if he's serious about work for an hour,
i'm sure he can play for hours. forcing him to do lots of assessment isn't going to help, can't they get it? WAKE UP bro. please... soon...
i feel like
im starting on a new page of my life after PW however ridiculous this sounds. my
jc1 misery has ended
offically. from now on,
i'll be focusing on things that
i've neglected and start packing my room(first on agenda).
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i want to thank all my friends who have been giving me support all this while, the times i were feeling down, frustrated, and needed someone to rant and talk the worm language.
thankyou all very much! i wouldn't have gone through jc1 without giving up, without
yur. love ya!
and to my parents: thank you so much too. i don't know how to tell
yur how sorry i am for breaking down so badly so many times in this year. every decision made after sec4 was so hard and appeared to be so wrong. quarrelled over so many things like going ocip and stuff. i don't know why i've this sudden outburst but i think i need to work on being a better daughter. everyday was pw, study, hw and when there was time i just close myself in my world, this year. thank you dad for fetching my around west coast for my cca activities. and mum for all the housework you do and nice food you cook :D thank you so much.
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a new journey awaits.
The sun is rising @
8:51 PM
